I ask for so little. Just fear me, love me, do as I say and I will be your slave.

Okay guys, as the subject says, this is probably going to be a LONG post.  I've been kind of on the depressed side for the last week here, not sure entirely why, but I know all of you have been checking in on me as of late.  Some of the people in this list might not read this post, and the list is in no specific order, just doing this as it comes to mind.  Its about time I let everyone know though, so here we go.

 

Momma Kate-I don't know what I would possibly do without you.  You've been there for me for so long now, it amazes me that you never got sick of me and just wrote me off.  You've helped me through some of the hardest times of my life, and you've been there to help me celebrate the wonderful times.  We've laughed and cried together, sometimes both at once depending on the situation.  You have no idea just how much I love you, how much I appreciate you being here, because you didn't have to be.  You've picked me up when I couldn't do it on my own, you've kicked me in the ass when I've needed it, and you've made me fess up to reality when I tried to refuse.  What more could a daughter ask for?

 

Aunt Stacy-You keep telling me you're honoured that I chose to call you my Aunt.  Well, that goes both ways, I'm honoured that you chose to call me your neice.  You've always made it known that if I ever need help, that I can come to you with anything.  That's not something to be done lightly, and it shows me just how much you love me.  Thank you for that, I'm glad to have you in my life, but be warned, you've no idea what you've gotten yourself into *laugh*  I'm quite the handful as I'm sure you've noticed by now.

 

Crystal- My very own wenchling, you've no idea how much I love you, and you've no idea how important you are to me.  We've been talking to eachother for years, but when we met last may, it really cemented our friendship into something completely amazing.  It never matters how upset I am, I can go to you and with a simple touch, you make things better for me.  I remember being at that Irish Festival last time I visited and getting the news that my friend's mother had been diagnosed with cancer.  All you had to do was hug me, and I instantly felt calmer, I knew things would be okay.  I hope I can do that for you someday, let you know with the simplest but most heartfelt touch that things will indeed be all right.  I really wish I could do just that right now.

 

John/Dommers- Amazing isn't it?  After 8 years of some of the strangest, funniest, most heartbreaking, and heartfelt discussions I've ever had, we finally got to meet last summer.  Funny how things happen, one day you're 15 years old flirting with someone on the internet, and then a while later, you're all grown up and coming face to face with the person you teased mercilessly... glad you took that all so well *laugh* I'm not sure many other men could have taken it.  You're an incredible person, and I'm lucky to have you as a friend.

 

John/Wolvie- You are one of the sweetest, goofiest son of a bitches I've ever met.  You're the strangest combination of kindess, love, and sarcasm, and it definitely makes you unique.  I don't think there could ever be another person quite like you... I'm not sure there should be, I don't think the world at large could handle it; but it would be funny to watch them try.  We tend to go through long periods of not talking to eachother, but never think you're not in my thoughts and my heart.  I love you to death

 

Uncle Cai- We don't always get along.. hell, a while back, we didn't get along at all... two damned headstrong people butting heads to try and find out who would get their own way in this family... At least we figured out we didn't have to butt heads anymore.  I'm not sure we could have handled much more fighting between the two of us, it was pretty intense.  But out of those spats came a strong sense of respect and love for one another.  I wouldn't trade one of those silly arguments.  I love you, Uncle.

 

Shannon/Colleen- How do I even start this?  You too, have been with me through so much.  Tears, smiles, knock down drag out arguments over stupid shit, and through all of it, we both knew the other loved us, unconditionally.  I know family-wise, you're a cousin, but I look at you as a sister.  I love you, I respect you, and I think you are an amazing woman.  Things haven't always been easy on either of us, but you've always been there for me, even if things weren't great for you, and you know that no matter what is plagueing me, that I would do the same for you, anytime, anywhere.

 

Addy/Josh- We had a pretty rocky time there for a bit, but I'm glad we got past it.  You're such a sweet, funny, geeky *in a good way* guy, I can't help but love you.  You've always been there for me, whether I was happy, sad, angry, or in the biggest rut I've ever found.  You've made me laugh when I didn't think I could, and gotten me laughing so hard I cried again because of it, any bit of sadness disappearing.  You have no idea what your friendship has meant to me over the years, and simple words just can't express it, but hey, I'm tryin

 

John/Gawain- Darling, it is almost impossible to count the times I've leaned on you for support and vice versa.  You made me promise the other day that should anything ever come up and I need you, that I MUST call you, no matter what time of day or night.  We've lectured each other on the stupid shit we've done, but we've rarely gotten upset with eachother because of it, surprisingly enough.  I don't know how your lectures never seem to make me lose my temper, but they don't.  Somehow, I have a hard time getting angry with you, and on the rare occasion I do, I can't stay that way, even if I try my hardest to do so.  That alone amazes me, but then, you always do.

 

Jake- Yes boy, I'm including you on this.  Ever since we met a year or so ago at work, you've had this strange knack for making me laugh, no matter how pissed off or angry I was.  You're one of the few people I can have a real discussion or debate with without my being accused of being overly argumentative... that's something incredible to me in itself.  I haven't gotten to talk to you or see you in quite a while, but I wanted to let you know I miss you... things definitely aren't the same at work anymore... its so boring most of the time.  I just wanted to say thank you for being there for me, and if you should need to talk about anything, you know where I am

 

Lyz- My darling girl, I can't imagine life without you.  I love you with all my heart.  You're one of the very best friends I've ever had.  You always know when I need you, half the time you know it before I do.  Never doubt that you're loved, and you're never alone.  I may be quite a ways away, but that doesn't mean I'm not thinking of you.  I love you so much.

 

To anyone not on this list, don't think you're forgotten, because you're most definitely not.  If I call you my friend, that means I love you, because its pretty rare for me to really call someone a friend.  Being my friend means you're family to me.  I never had a big family, so my friends became what I felt was missing.  You're all dear to me, whether your name is mentioned above or not.  The names listed above were the ones that have needed to be told for a long time how much I love and appreciate them, but don't take that as meaning I don't have the same reguard for those of you not mentioned.